Alright, I’m done. Well done, actually. Completely and utterly fried. I don’t know if it is the lack of sleep. the endless days of juggling everything, or the reconnect after yesterday, but it is unreal. We are bordering on unhinged. And I’m not even done yet. I seriously need to shift my head. This is not a good place to be. I don’t like the moment when overwhelmed quickly becomes “fuck it, i’m done”. Not a good sign. definitely not a place to make any rational decisions. I need to settle a bit. Back off this path of thinking. I need to finish some more work, but I think the only option here in a nap. Maybe it will stop this cycle of thinking/ feeling and reset, so I can be a little more with it and less apt to leave for the nearest deserted island. I’m not talking about a vacation. I’m talking about leaving and never again setting foot on this property, or in this life. Because where my head is now, I could care less. None of it means a god damn thing.