I know I have been scare these past couple weeks. It has been so solid my mind hasn’t much been hiding in its own skull as usual. I love these times. I can live my life and all the other shit that is normally holding court is gone. It is just life as it should be. I am productive and settled. Not that there aren’t worries, there always are. They just don’t have the power they do when I’m not in quite as solid a place. For now I just want to enjoy it. I want to be happy and content. Think I deserve that.