sleep isn’t coming easy in this exhausted restless place. the steady fog continues interrupted only by sound. any sound. even the slightest hum from the appliances is too much. I spent the later part of the evening wearing headphones just to block the sounds. I slept an hour only to be awoken by something and now sleep just won’t return.

forming and spelling words is too difficult but I wanted to write something to try and put words on this. i’m failing at that.

I don’t know what is the matter with me. this isn’t my mind. this isn;t me. i don’t understand this and I’m afraid. i’m sure that sounds stupid and it prob is.