I have given up trying to figure out where my head is at. I have found it easiest to just be. I sit on the deck and watch the hummingbirds fly to and from the feeders. Often arguing and chattering at each other. I can sit there for hours. Lost. Immersed in this world that revolves only around food and territory. I don’t know why the fascination but I’ll take it. so there I sit with the fountain bubbling and the hummingbirds feeding- avoiding my life. It may be a distraction. I know. I have a million things to do but this is somehow very important right now. I think I need to respect that.