I know I have been pretty absent here. It isn’t just the blog. I’m unenthusiastic about everything and anything. Today I didn’t even bother running or biking. I remain lost in this strange place, far from where I was. To have been so solidly committed and disciplined for these past years and to end up here. I just don’t understand. It feels like I am throwing away so much effort and hard work. and I just don’t care. What happened to me?